seperis | fandom: queer as folk

While rewatching Queer as Folk vids so as to carefully select the ones to send to

trickesterquinn, it hit me how very much you could be stockholmed into thinking some really surreal things were normal. I'm not even talking about like, the sheer amount of drug-fueled sex; I'm talking about Brian's stint as private investigator of a murder with Hunter as taking one for the team so as to get DNA that Brian then uses to solve a murder. In his batmobile.

(It was totally a batmobile.)

Explaining the season three-four plotlines were possibly the closest I've ever come to an identity crisis. Even more annoyingly, all but

sisabet's vids are absent from the net; I am staring at Blue Room in Archway with the horrified realization there are people that have not seen it and will never see it and mourn like whoa.

I'm sorry, all of you; it and Acid are like, the pinnacle of late season two/early season three Brian Angsts With Stoned Orgasms Like You Have No Idea (But Does Not Kiss on the Mouth) to a beat with clever use of the color blue to symbolize his manpain. Sometimes in group settings.

God, I miss that fandom.

ETA: On rewatch, Acid should come after Blue Room in Archway, or the entire sequence of repeating glimpses of Justin looking turned on and freaked out in a brick red hoodie does not penetrate as a seminal Brian/Justin moment (well, less semen that one might think, so semi-seminal?) of Great and Terrible Significance, not to mention wondering what the fuck Brian's nasal passages are made of, fucking titanium? The man snorts cocaine from twinks' asses (I swear this happened in the show once. I mean, everything else did); his sense of smell is epic.

God, I feel so alienated from fandom. Which is probably why I'm so stressed; coming here's a fantastic release valve.

Okay, to reiterate and play catch-up: life hard. Want cookies.

Middle Sister and Boyfriend are marrying on the ninth. They're disturbingly excited about the coming baby. This is significant in the fact we have about seven and a half months to get ready for this kid.

Now, recently, I started pulling up Baby Armani and staring lustfully at overpriced sleeperes at Macy's. This can all be explained by the fact that I was feeling crappy this last weekend and suddenly thought to myself, I need to read QaF fic!

Oh dear God. I never get out of those fic without suddenly wanting to take out a loan and go on a Prada buying spree, even though:

a.) I'm not very much into designer, and know painfully little about it, and care less.

b.) I'd need a serious loan to *afford* it.

I think the bad part is, I didn't want to read the good stuff off my and some other people's rec pages. Oh no. I wanted romance. Deep romance. Beautiful, purple, talk-about-feelings, everyone-cries, epic romance.

Which is why I was emailing

eleveninches this:

(you can actually trace my slow but inevitable slide to insanity through my email.)

( random emails to erin, below cut )

Other News

Youngest sister is MIA again, after moving back in and fighing with everyone. OTOH, this means I don't have to obsessively hide the Ritalin in a new place every damn day.

Going to the beach with entire family this weekend. We rented a condo on the beach, so it should be interesting, provided we all don't try to kill each other.

Vannezsa's agreed to care for Waffles. I pity her malleability.

Universe is slowly becoming less hectic. My sleep has been seriously fucked this week with the sudden influx of--well, everything. I think it's some kind of karmic justice thing for me and Madelyn spending all of the last day of the cruise lying in lounge chairs in the sun and snapping our fingers for more daquiris and maui mauis. It was a lot of daquiris and maui mauis.

Totally worth it. I have the cruise pictures on my camera and will upload a few when I can get the docking station to stop being idiotic. There are none in existence of me doing karaoke while perhaps a bit not-sober. This is a good thing. I just wish there were pictures of

svmadelyn on her horse. You should ask her about it. Really. It doesn't even make her grind her teeth audibly anymore!

Honestly, after this next weekend? I cannot *wait* to get back to normal.

*sends special love to the slumberparty girls* I miss you all. It was amazing fun.

Well, day after tomorrow, I start live as an advisor. Someone, somewhere, thought it was a good idea to give me adult responsibilities. This is worrying me about the human race in general.

But. Officey things! Happy!

First Off

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to

jaymalea, who rocks, addicts, prods, and coaxes in equal measure. *hugshughugs* You are wonderous, chica, and I hope you have a wonderful, wonderful birthday. Or had one. Still having one?

*hugs hard*

People Reviewing the Episode

See, I wish I had something to say, but I pretty much lost all ability to articulate watching all the pretty B/Jness. *happy sigh* So. Other people.

quinn222 gets all insightful, such as, Brian with a plan is never a good thing., which I am in total agreement with. Brian should never be left to his own devices in making a single decision about his emotions or relationships. It's like giving cats shoes. When is this a good idea?

I *told* you I was getting weird with the comparisons.

reboot_wml is really sympathetic to Michael. And wise and stuff. She says, My first thoughts about 408 are about the ‘shoulds’ that should have taken place in this episode.

valereix is full of the Justin love in, telling us Justin represents all I aspire to be: brave, adorable, and hot in cargo pants. He really is hot in cargo pants. Or you know, naked. I could live with more naked, less pants.

*sighs* And if wishes were horses....

sweetestdrain says that Ted freaked me out. Just a little. But I liked it. What's the deal, now that Ben's gone schizoid, Ted has to be resident Zen Man? Cool by me, just. Odd..

jainieg is all sweet and moody, talking about Oh, my god. The pain! Owie owie owie owie ow ow ow ow ow!. Hmm.

rachelanton73 is very, very clever, saying, Justin- so cute I can no longer cope. The cuteness has seriously rendered me incoherent where his character is concerned. It has reached dangerous proportions. His fuzzy head and his radiant face and his relentless love for Brian, and really, the Justin love on my friendslist falleth like manna. It's comforting.

wrenlet is just fun to read, isn't she? She says stuff like this; I have to say, I have not hated the Ted arcs, or been bored with them, or any of that but it just makes me all warm right about here *waves hand* that Ted is back to having the biggest heart in Babylon, as Michael said of him first season.. *sighs* Oh Ted. Sometimes, you are fun. Just not while having sex with Blake. That's me saying that, not wrenlet.

throughadoor all amuses me with the Michael thoughts, and also, this; oh ben, for a moment there i didn't completely loathe you, because, whee! I have an ally! I need one. I am an island in my hate. *sigh*

circusgirl is thoughtful; Did Hal Sparks finally break out the glycerine? The world may never know..

I'm missing

bigboobedcanuck already, in so many sad ways. Sad, sad ways.

*sighs*

But she will give us fic (please God, give us fic) and so I will mourn only for the rest of the season.

Okay, one comment. Mostly because seriously, I am all about the angstiness. See, this is when I say, I was on crack, worrying about all that schmoop. Because, ouchies.

( tiny bits, spoilery, very boring girl tonight )

Also,

lierdumoa is writing leather porn. My life is *so* good right now. Brownies. There should be mystical chewy brownies *any* minute now.

Being pretty much in love with Brian gives me absolutely no objectivity. I'm so good with that. No, really.

Other people say smart things. I'm going to wander. 'Cause man, angst. Sometimes boring angst. Very, very boring angst.

I feel snarky. Just chalk it up to hormones or something.

( need more coffee for this one )

EVIL BEN! HAHAHA!

You'd think I'd get bored with it, don't you? I am tenacious and somewhat thickheaded sometimes with the irrational hate thing.

But. Onward, because I can overcome senseless dislike and ponder the imponderables, and still, no one has told me if that's a word yet.

( happy shiny, not so shiny, and just plain weird )

I'm guessing next week will be better. Going ot read the smart people reviews now and be all giggly.

There is so much I could say about this episode, but I have coffee and have mellowed out my HORRIBLE RAGE quite a bit. Now I'm just cheerful.

To make this fun, we'll split this into two categories--Things Jenn Likes, and Things She Doesn't. To cement my newfound irrational hatred of Ben, we shall just automatically place him under Things She Doesn't from now on, whether or not it is appropriate. Also, see icon! Courtesey of the marvelous

tboy. Who rocks.

Everyone with me? Good. Right then. Onto the--whatever this is. Spoiler-safe through current episode.

( guns are hot and literature makes me sleepy )

Still in the afterglow of good fic. *smiles, sated*

Since Ethan is no longer around to hate, I need a new character to loathe. At first, I thought it would be Hunter, but he's disturbingly and creepily adorable this season. Michael's too easy--everyone does Michael. And I'm sure Justin will get aroudn to arousing my ire at some point, but he's just too adorable to hate for long. Emmett wears eyeliner and so I love him. Ted's--Ted. And Blake is boring.

So, it's gotta be Ben.

I hate Ben.

There. I hate Ben. He's--making people eat soy products. And stuff. And--things--

No, wait. Irrational hate needs no basis.

*happier* I hate Ben! I shall go look for appropriate icons to reflect this newfound hatred and loathing. Whee!

I'm insensitive and rude and so not focusing on the issue here.

But. People. It's pink

( i'm not getting over that anytime soon )

Whee! Before I finished this,

wrenlet got her episode thoughts up here. Now could the rest of the usual suspects come out and play? I'm kind of itching for discussion.

*bounces impatiently*

I am not sitting here, talking myself into exploring Brian/Emmett.

josselin did not set these Very Wrong Thoughts in motion.

jainieg is not enabling like some evil yenta from hell.

But you know...

Emmett would so feed Brian when he gets pissy. I swear, half of Brian's bad moods come from semi-starvation. He'd just stuff food in his mouth to shut him up.

I'm so going to hell.

Stupid episode.

*grrr*

I suppose OTPing Ted and Blake at this point is just going to end in tragedy.

But still.

( queer as folk, season four, episode two, very random )

Theoretically, let's say someone, who isn't me, wanted to write Hunter/Ethan. I mean, for no actual artistic value, but because so far, I can't find that pairing and what the hell, this is QaF, the one show where you can pretty much get everyone to fuck each other, because there's a better than good chance they've done it before in canon or thought about it at some point during an e-fueled high.

I love my fandom.

For some reason, the idea of Hunter sneaking out with Ethan's wallet afterward while he's sleeping just makes me happy. After referring to

josselin, who, by the way, wasn't online when I thought of it and therefore wasn't able to derail me in time, I think it requires more thought, since I have, a.) Hunter hustles Ethan, and b.) Hunter steals the wallet. That is boring. And also, would require me to write sex between two characters that I find less sexy than toilet paper.

I'm thinking flying monkeys should attack. Or maybe the hotel has a convention fo gay Elvis impersonators. I mean, nothing says Comic Gold like gay Elvis impersonators.

Or this could be me, being reactive, since I forced myself to sit through Justin and Ethan making strange, icky eyes at each other early season three, like very dense, very loaded, very, very creepy sheep.

A very slight chance I just want a reason to humiliate Ethan. Just a little. Like, Hunter buys straight porn or a scary number of pay per view Adam Sandler movies or something and it shows up on Ethan's statement.

*sighs*

Stupid boring story. *smashes it*

LJ is being werid with the comment function AND the posting thing. Grr. Take two.

See, I am *so* behind, and honestly, wouldn't have been writing this at all except a.) internet down for upgrading and b.) (related to a) watched QaF vids and seaon three, post ep seven. (also got through three entire eps of QaFUK, so pleased, but kinda shell shocked by the experience).

But that's neither here nor there. I'll just say that

rhiannonhero's Acid and Keely's Safe and Sound are like, the definitive "I need to hurt Justin" vids. Because they always, always make me want to strangle him with something unsexy, like a, I don't know, shoestring or something.

It always depresses me to say that I don't love Justin best, mostly because intellectually, I'm aware I'm being really unfair to the little champ, you know? I can be honest and say that should I ever have an unboyfriend such as Brian, he'd have possibly been strangled in his sleep. You know, when I had the energy, what with all the fucking we'd be doing. Because if I had an unboyfriend that looked like Brian, really, I wouldn't want to leave bed all that often. Or the shower, desk, chair, table, couch...you get the idea.

Luckily, Acid and Safe and Sound always make me feel justified, if I ignore the entire first season and the beginning of the second, which I can do very easily, every time I see poor Brian wandering around looking both unsurprised and lost. Like, yeah, saw this one coming a mile away, and the best he'd hoped for was that when it hit, he'd be ready and knowing he never would be.

Then I started watching Ethan and this horrible, terrifying thing occurred. I felt *bad* for him.

( blabbering at random )

The thing is, I've managed to be frustrated at three differnet topics in two differnet forums, and it's all mixed up in my head now.

Te did this blog entry--God, two years ago?--on the Balkinization of fandom, and please God, let me have spelled that correctly. If she were a nice Te, she'd move it to her LJ, because I seriously got a kick out of the logic.

Oh. Fannish whimpering. Yeah. Cutting now. The lack of organization and rambling is deliberate. No, really. *Really*.

( fannish whimpering, many sorts )

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this is what i get for trying to explain magic to people

updating. yes. it surprises me too.

qafreview: s4e8

review: QaF, season four, episode seven

review: QaF, season four, episode six

review: QaF, season four, episode five

it's something i gotta do

qafreview: s4e3

i'm so not thinking

(no subject)

random qaffic thought

disturbing thoughts on ethan

balkinazation in qaf