Here you go, though: for all your Sayid Jarrah/Desmond Hume needs.

Friday, February 15th, 2019 02:52 pm

Bargains AU concept 2

Here is the alternate POV version of the first scene from the bargains AU, plus another scene that follows it! This is actually the first version of the scene I wrote, following two scenes set earlier in the AU that are very fragmentary and so haven’t been posted. (Those are the scenes that give the concept its nickname, go figure.)

Please note that while I don’t typically warn, these scenes contain discussion of self-harm and suicide.

About 2.7K below the break.


“Blast.” Ahsoka sank down onto a bench and rubbed her hands over her face, her exhaustion from the day’s events finally catching up with her. They’d been lucky that Free Ryloth had been as close as it had, or Barriss would probably be dead right now.

That’s one asset blown, she thought with cold-blooded resignation that startled her when the rest of her mind caught up with the thought. It was better for the galaxy that there were two Inquisitors out of the Emperor’s hands – three, maybe, though she hadn’t been able to tell if the Hunter had survived or not. A lightsaber through the back was generally fatal, but with Force-users you could never be sure. She’d learned that lesson in the dying days of the Clone Wars.

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One time when I was in cegep* I had the harpsichord and organ professor as a chamber music instructor. I didn't know it at the time but this lady was like, the matriarch of a music dynasty, inasmuch as there is such a thing in Montreal. Anyway she was just as eccentric as you might expect someone to be when they've made a career out of playing early/baroque music, a mix of very disciplined work ethic and a sort of... amorphous creative process. Like, rehearsals/lessons started and ended strictly on time, but the rehearsals themselves seemed to drift vaguely from informal discussion of music performance practice in the 18th century, to career anecdotes, to actual playing + practical advice. Oh also - I definitely remember her looking dishevelled and regularly wearing clothes that could comfortably be described as 'bag lady-adjacent.'

Ok so one day this lady tells us an anecdote. Recently, she says, she was driving and she turned on the radio, and it was set to a classical music station. The piece playing was something for organ that she knew well, but she didn't immediately recognize the specific recording. That surprised her and she kept listening intently because, she says, the more she heard, the more she thought to herself, "this is... good. No, it's really good! Who is this?"

Dunno if anyone sees this next part coming - I definitely didn't at the time. When the radio announcer came back on, she says, it turned out that the recording was... by her! She hadn't recognized it because she'd never actually listened to it! But, she says, she was glad that she agreed with her own performance choices.

I've thought about this anecdote regularly since. I have yet to read an entire piece of my own writing without recognizing it, but I have had the experience of reading something I'd written quickly and hadn't thought about in a long time, and ok, maybe one day I'll acquire the ability to describe my own work with the kind of unabashed admiration expressed by that professor, but that hasn't happened yet. HOWEVER, every once in a while I'm like "oh, this is, huh. Not embarrassing... at all" and I feel like it was anecdotes like that one that made me feel like that was a legitimate reaction.

Happy belated Valentine's Day everybody! Go forth and declare your artwork awesome.

*that's a thing between high school and university in Quebec. Typically a cegep student will be somewhere between 17 and 20 years old. The letters stand for "Collège d'enseignement général et professionnel."

Friday, February 15th, 2019 09:36 am

what I'm reading

We are all hostages of time. We each have the same number of minutes and hours to live within a day, yet to me it didn't feel equally doled out. My illness brought me such an abundance of time that time was nearly all I had. My friends had so little time that I often wished I could give them what time I could not use. It was perplexing how in losing health I had gained something so coveted but to so little purpose. friends were golden threads randomly appearing in the monotonous fabric of my days. Each visit was a window that opened momentarily into the life I had one known, always falling shut before I could make my way back through. The visits were like dream from which I awoke once more alone.

- The Sound of a Wild Snail Eating, Elisabeth Tova Bailey (2010)

(A beautifully written, charming, short book which is in no way slight, despite its size and subject matter. She really knows what it is like to live in the country of the sick, the "land of counterpane" as RLB Stevenson called it: "Given the ease with which health infuses life with meaning and purpose, it is shocking how swiftly illness steals away those certainties. It was all I could do to get through each moment, and each moment felt like an endless hour, yet days slipped silently past. Time unused and only endured still vanishes, as if time itself is starving, and each day is swallowed whole, leaving no crumbs, no memory, no trace at all.")

Review and excerpts

Related essay: "A Green World Deep in Winter: The Bedside Terrarium"

ETA Another quote:

There is a certain depth of illness that is piercing in its isolation; the only rule of existence is uncertainty, and the only movement is the passage of time. One cannot bear to live through another loss of function, and sometimes friends and family cannot bear to watch. An unspoken, unbridgeable divide may widen. Even if you are still who you were, you cannot actually fully be who you are. Sometimes the people you know well withdraw, and then even the person you know as yourself begins to change.

Friday, February 15th, 2019 09:22 am

In space no one can see you tweet

In case you wanted to cry a little more (happy tears) about Opportunity, check out the linked summary post in [profile] bad_astronomy.


I'm lobbing angry tweets at the Democratic Party on Twitter, which is clearly Very Helpful. Anyway, here we are (Twitter).


My gastrointestinal system has been super-happy these last few days! :P True, I have been eating roughage like a lady elephant, but hey, if that's what it takes...

Pirate Jenny rolled over and stretched, opening up the spaces between all her toes, then rolled back neatly to her feet, walked over to me and nudged. "Are you sure you're awake enough? Oh, all right." She yawned and reached out to touch a soft pink felt ball with one front paw, snag it with a claw and pull it back to herself to hold and knead...

As Haruar and the yeti came over the hill, they could see the raging of the river, engulfing the small stream with its broken bridge and a third of the way up the valleyside. The waters were nowhere near the outcropping sheltering Rrua, though. Rrua was half covered in the four-legs loose fur, lying so loose-limbed that Haruar stared hard to make sure she was still breathing. Criaor lay next to Rrua on the downhill side; little Ahtahtaht lay next to Rrua's head, backed into the rock face away from her teeth, in case she woke disoriented, and was licking Rrua's sore ear. The other four-legs had moved further uphill and were cropping grass and small plants, as if all were well, though it was apparent that one was keeping an eye on the river's movement, another was standing guard, of sorts, over Rrua and Criaor, and the third was watching the crest of the hillside. As soon as they were visible to one another, the four-legs on watch ran up to greet them.

"Yoooooooooooouuuuuuuuuu caaaaaaaaaammmmmmmeeeeeeee baaaaaaaaaaaaccccccckkkkk!" Beeta exclaimed. "Weeeeeeeeeeeee aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrreeee sssssssssstiiiiiiiiiilllllllllllll heeeeeeerrreeeeeee."

"And Rrua?" Haruar asked. She had to drop the food she carried in order to speak.

"Sssssshhhhheeeeeeee llllllliiiiiiiiiivvvvvvveeeeeeessssssss."

Ahtahtaht wriggled carefully backward, out from between Rrua and the rock face, and trotted up to them. "Heeeeeerrrrrrr eeeeeeeeaaaaaaarrrrrrr hhhhhhooooootttttt."

The yeti looked down at them with no expression, and walked down to sit in the space near Rrua's head. Criaor, who had been napping, awoke and watched as the yeti reached over to put its forepaw, with its long clawless toes, on Rrua's ear and head and simply leave it there for a long moment. The hard spot on her ear broke open, draining out blood and yellow goo... and then that spot was gone, as if it had never been except for the bare patch where there was no fur. Rrua shuddered once, and then began breathing more deeply, as if she were only sleeping. The yeti gathered her onto his lap and held her as she breathed, and the color came back into her nose, and the tip of her tail twitched -- it had not moved since the wolf attack.

Criaor said in a low voice, "Thank you." He got up, nosed at Rrua, and then held still while the yeti ran its paws over his sides, and the shallow slash at the edge of his ribs where the wolf had caught him in the fight was gone, as if it had never been. He could not help it; he bowed to the yeti, the full-on forelegs-out bow that was properly owed only to Haiirao, First Brother.

The yeti regarded him calmly, reached out to put that cold paw on his head for an instant, and Criaor rose, hungry but whole. He ran up to where Haraur stood. "I'm so glad you're back!" he said, and rubbed himself along her entire side as he would have done as a kitten.

"Let me guess: you're hungry." Haraur felt she had to make a joke; she was seeing miracles and it was almost too much to deal with, though she would not have wanted the miracles to stop because of any limitation of her own. "Take half; the other half is for Rrua."

Criaor nodded and pulled off a back leg and haunch, and took it aside up the hill to eat it. "I left some for you both."

Haraur dragged the rest of the food down near where Rrua still lay on the yeti's lap, but not so near that it would alarm the small four-legs, who had gathered around the yeti and Rrua. They stepped aside so that she could walk up to the yeti and see for herself that Rrua was better, breathing easily. The yeti, who had been smoothing down the fur on Rrua's side, looked over at Haraur, who took a deep breath and stepped forward.

It didn't hurt. That was her first thought, as the yeti moved its hands over her. It didn't hurt, and it didn't feel too cold. It felt ... it felt like the way air moved high up on a mountain, fresh and clear and just moist enough to numb briefly, not to harm. She wondered if that was what the four-legs felt, or if they would even think of their experience in the same way, with their narrow little hard toes and their thick fluffy fur. Maybe different bodies and different languages did not share the same ideas, along with the same words.

Pirate Jenny gazed out the window nearby, where a bird was singing on a branch. "You hear that? It's a declaration of war against any other bird-of-that-kind that comes near. But even I cannot understand all the words."

Haruar closed her eyes and breathed slowly, deeply, until the yeti's forepaw stopped touching her. When she opened them, Rrua had shifted on the yeti's lap and was opening her eyes. "Where am I? Oh, there you are. Is everyone all right? I'm so hungry."

[End of Part the Eleventh]

Friday, February 15th, 2019 11:10 am

somehow we all fall down

So today is Lupercalia, and I used to always post some Remus/Sirius to commemorate that, and I have been feeling nostalgic for them (honestly, I always feel nostalgic for them, in the bright heady days of the fandom before the Veil), and [ profile] angelgazing and I were talking - she asked me what one Sirius/Remus story she should rec on twitter and I was like, "Wait! I know this! That the Science of Cartography Is Limited by Rave." Which, it turns out, is on AO3 now, so you can read it yourself if you haven't already. I haven't read it in like ten years (I will be remedying that today *g*), but I'm sticking with that as my answer.

Anyway, I wrote a paragraph yesterday that is kind of blah so now I think I know what I want to write - just one scene from a larger AU idea I love but will never actually write. I just need to figure out how to do it. But it could happen later today! Who knows?? Watch this space!

In other news, the second season of The Dragon Prince comes out today on Netflix, so I'll probably be watching that this weekend, as well as various other Netflix shows I keep meaning to watch. There's just so much tv. But I did watch Brooklyn Nine Nine last night!

spoilers ahoy! )


Friday, February 15th, 2019 07:07 am

social media stuff

So I kind of went a tiny bit viral on Twitter yesterday and it's cool and also weird.

See, Amazon decided not to establish its second HQ in NYC, the way they originally thought. They claim opposition from locals, which is legit, but also they said they wouldn't be neutral if employees tried to unionize and got a ton of pushback, so they opted out. Which is also legit; unions are good things.

People on Twitter were like "NYC is stupid this is terrible business" and anyway I got involved in a Twitter thread and just basically...went off on this guy trying to tell me I knew nothing about basic economics. Yeah, I got mansplained to about my own local economy, which is not something I thought I'd ever say but hey. And like I didn't mean to keep going but I was kind of on a roll and honestly I was torn between just enjoying dunking on this asshole and being pissed I was being mansplained to about the area I live in, so...(do I win a prize for him saying he wasn't mansplaining he was econsplaining?)

Anyway, then someone screencapped my rant at this guy and shared it and it's got a couple hundred RTs and I gained like 50 followers which is just weird. I'm like "I'm not usually that interesting? Really?"

But I don't want to post about this on FB because I try to keep my FB and Twitter semi-separate, and it feels weird to talk on Twitter about being popular on Twitter, so here we are. The game of social media, where you figure out which social media system you want to use to talk about the others.

Anyway, if you want to read it, here's the screencap.

Friday, February 15th, 2019 09:27 am

and I got a second Chocolate Box gift!

Another Check Please! Kent/OMC story, this one from a long-term boyfriend's POV:

Bite My Tongue (2509 words) by Anonymous
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Check Please! (Webcomic)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Kent "Parse" Parson/Original Male Character(s), Eric "Bitty" Bittle/Jack Zimmermann
Characters: Kent "Parse" Parson, Original Male Character(s), Jack Zimmermann, Alicia Zimmermann, Bob Zimmermann
Additional Tags: Meeting the Parents, First Impressions, Introspection

It wasn't that Angelo disliked the Zimmermanns. He wanted to like them. Honestly. Kent really liked them.

But Angelo was never quite sure what to think of them.

Friday, February 15th, 2019 08:36 am

check out the Chocolate Box gift I got!

I got a Check Please! PWP about a Kent/OMC Grindr hook-up with a hopeful and sweet ending.

(As a side note, I had no idea you could do emojii titles on AO3.)

👀 (1032 words) by Anonymous
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Check Please! (Webcomic)
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Kent "Parse" Parson/Original Male Character(s)
Characters: Kent "Parse" Parson, Original Male Character(s)
Additional Tags: Hook-Up, Dirty Talk, Beginnings

k: hey hows it going?
T👀: hey man
T👀: not bad, u?
k: horny lol
k: u want head?
T👀: got any pics?

Thursday, February 14th, 2019 08:58 pm

Bargains AU concept 1

Some scenes from the Bargains AU concept! I’ve been working on this on and off since July or so and it’s still very fragmentary, but these scenes are relatively complete (though were written in reverse order). The first scene I originally wrote as an Ahsoka POV, then rewrote it with a Hera POV a few months later; I’ll just post the Hera one now so that I can post the second scene along with it.

About 4K below the break; these are bargains AU concepts 9 and 4.


I should be flying right now! Hera thought, trying to fight down her irritation as she hurried down the corridor. She had gotten to fly more than this at the ISB Academy, where cadets were required to log flight hours in a variety of vehicles. After eight months with the Free Ryloth fleet, she could count on one hand the number of times she had been in a cockpit. The fleet had a limited number of starfighters, all of which were currently assigned to other pilots, with a waitlist that Hera hadn’t been able to even get on. She had finally managed to convince one of the squadron commanders to give her a trial and had been in the port hangar about to climb into a V-19 Torrent when her father had commed her.

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Thursday, February 14th, 2019 08:55 pm


1. Today at lunch I tried cooking up some collard greens with olive oil and preserved lemon and red pepper flakes and a splash of vinho verde, and they were awesome.

2. My kid made me a card containing two whole sheets of stickers. Puppies with hearts. Kittens with hearts. Hearts with hearts. ♥

3. I got to see [personal profile] lomedet today (on my computer) and do some learning, and that was super-lovely and good for me.

4. I'm getting into a rhythm now -- I set out the bread flour and the sugar and my bread bowl on Thursday night, and Friday morning after I feed cat and boy I start my challah dough -- and this makes me happy.

5. Laundry is spinning and I am in cozy PJs sipping rosé, huzzah.

How are y'all?

Thursday, February 14th, 2019 07:33 pm

What I'm Doing Wednesday on Thursday

Finished Thud! and Snuff, thus completing my reread of the Discworld City Watch books. *sniff* I wish there were more. And I still want Sybil's adventures, and even more so now, as I had no memory of Snuff from my first read. Meanwhile I've opened and bounced off of four different books. IDEK.

I'm making octopus progress with the octopus pattern, octopuses yay octopuses!

dirt cut for pics )

healthcrap content note: blood )

Friday, February 15th, 2019 01:27 am

The Escapade Dealer Room

The Escapade Dealer Room offers a variety of opportunities to drop a little cash picking up fannish memorabilia, zines, fan-oriented clothing and jewelry, and more!  With open hours during all three days of the con, the dealer room is a great way to spend some time between panels. Don’t forget to bring cash!


diannelamerc:  Killer Clockwork Llama

Fannish Jewelry and Crafts


Jim: Jim & Melody’s Vintage Fanzines

Fanzines & more fanzines. Also, books, stuffies, and more.


kandy fong

vids & zines & jewelry & more


Sue Tooran: Featherweight Finery

Handmade jewelry executed in fun, vibrant, light weight anodized aluminum.


sian1359: A Wrinkle in Time

Licensed pop culture items of interest to slash fans.


And Ken will be running our Orphan Sales table as usual, offering Escapade vid show DVDs and whatever else members bring to sell.


Check out our dealer room page for hours, details on orphan sales, and more:

Dealer Room



Recent News Updates:

Hendrix's shredding of the national anthem is justly famous as a blazing, angry, joyous, celebration/destruction of the very idea of "the land of the free and the home of the brave," but I love his version of Bob Dylan's song too (it basically became Jimi's song, the way van Morrison took possession of "It's All Over Now Baby Blue"). There's the bold energy of that staccato percussive-driven opening, the guitar riff, and That Voice declaiming There must be some kinda way outa here....There's too much confusion, I can't get no relief -- If you rolled 1968 up in a ball and threw it as far and fast as you could, the trajectory would sound like this song. Hendrix famously did take after take of it, drove the musicians to such distraction he also wound up playing the bass part, and was "increasingly dissatisfied as the song progressed, overdubbing more and more guitar parts, moving the master tape from a four-track to a twelve-track to a sixteen-track machine". Maybe he knew even then it was his masterpiece, in a catalogue of them.

Jimi still makes the guitar wail like a possessed angel, but it's his tense-to-explosive delivery that gives the final lines a jacked-up awareness of growing menace and attendant violence that made the song like an anthem of the sixties even to this day, for its knowledge that the watchman was in vain:

Outside in the cold distance
a wildcat did growl
Two riders were approaching --
and the wind -- began to

Thursday, February 14th, 2019 01:00 pm

V-Day in our house

OUR HEROINE: You're getting me that super fancy chocolate from the place down by Westlake, right?

SPOUSAL OVERUNIT: Yes, I thought I would surprise y --

OH: No, here's this list of which ones I want.

SO: Oh, thank you.* -- Do you want a card?

OH: Nah, I'm good with the chocolate. You could get Teentsy some catnip maybe.

Although he always brings a dozen dark red roses home before I wake up (not hard LOL), because he is a die hard Romantic.

*yes he really is always that polite, how he wound up with me I Do Not Know

[personal profile] lj_writes posted: Signal Boost bookmarklet with user name tags for more sites
I made a fork/update to [personal profile] melannen's fork of [personal profile] astolat's signal boost bookmarklet, which adds user name tags for more of the sites recognized by the DW user tag. I also made small changes to the text generated by the bookmarklet.

Wow, that is pretty!

Thursday, February 14th, 2019 01:50 pm

Book rec!

C.L. Polk's Witchmark (which I really enjoyed) is available at until February 16th. I can't wait for the sequel!

Thursday, February 14th, 2019 12:37 pm

(no subject)


Today, I have learned that Ben Platt (original Evan Hansen in Dear Evan Hansen) is gay, because he released an adorable and sweet video for his upcoming album


The guy who just finished his stint as Evan (Taylor Trensch) and the guy who's the lead on the national tour (Ben Levi Ross) ARE DATING. And I found this out because the Dear Evan Hansen people released a version of the love duet from the show, "Only Us", sung by those two guys. My grinchy heart is warmed on this Valentine's Day.

Thursday, February 14th, 2019 12:58 pm

the saints can't help me now

A random number of random things makes a post?

a. I just googled "when is Ash Wednesday 2019" because I might not actually be even a C&E Catholic anymore (I am strictly weddings and funerals at this point), but I do try not to eat meat on Fridays during Lent. I mean, I'm not always successful at it, and I think it is an utterly ridiculous rule for a variety of reasons, but I am mindful of it, also for a variety of reasons. (I could do a whole long thing here about being [lapsed] Catholic, but I'll spare you my very mixed feelings.) Anyway, it's not until March 6th! Easter is very late this year!

2. I teared up yesterday and again this morning about Opportunity (see also here and here). #see you space cowboy #i'm not crying you're crying

iii. I asked this on tumblr, but I guess I can ask it here as well: what do you think a kyber crystal feels like to an earthbender?

This made me start thinking about why I like crossovers so much, because I really do (I have written a lot of them, and it's mostly that I just want the characters I love to meet other characters I love, especially if they have a lot in common (I still haven't figured out how to get Aang and Steve Rogers in a room together, but maybe someday!). I really can't stand crossovers that use characters from one canon to shit on characters from the other, or make one set awesome and one set awful. That is a very quick way to get me to close out of a story and I try really hard not to do that when I write.

I also really like super unlikely crossovers (Firefly & Harry Potter! BSG & SPN!) where part of the challenge is coming up with a way for the universes to mesh when they really shouldn't (the rules of magic in BtVS vs. HP or SPN, for example) and then throwing in just enough detail to allow a reader to handwave while being carried along with the story. I feel like too much detail - large info dumps or explanations - bog down and lose readers. At least, they lose me as a reader. I don't care that much about the mechanism as long as the story is engaging. I mean, I care a little but if you as the author don't dwell on it, I'm probably not going to either. Yes, Dan and Casey have been invited to commentate at the Quidditch World Cup because Isaac knows a guy. Alternately, Sam and Dean are investigating rumors that Sally is a mandroid, because Isaac knows a guy. Or maybe Veronica Mars is a SHIELD agent and River is a baby Jedi. Just go with it and enjoy the story! And huh, I don't have a tag for talking about crossovers. I used to have an icon, but I don't have that anymore either. Huh. #buy the premise buy the joke

D. We have a three day weekend coming up and I have no plans so I think I am going to do some cooking. I am planning to bake this bread, and since it makes two loaves (more than I need in one go, but halving a recipe makes my brain hurt sometimes), I think I will use most of one to make that French onion panade I linked to last week, because it does sound delicious and it can be either lunch or dinner for the week.

5. Sometimes it pays to complain - yesterday the vending machine on my floor was out of ginger ale and I had to go downstairs to procure it, and today I got an email saying that ginger ale has been restocked! Huzzah! Of course, I already bought a bottle because I have many beverage needs, but it's good to know it's there if I need it.


Thursday, February 14th, 2019 10:14 amNSFW

Fic: Build a Life From Scratch 8/?

Thursday, February 14th, 2019 08:52 am

Happy Galentine's Day --

yeah, that's right; [personal profile] samjohnsson and [personal profile] spikespeigel; you're honorable ladies for this day.

Hope all of you are doing okay. I personally am mildly grumpy that we cancelled our D&D session for a completely commercialized day on which you can't even get a proper restaurant reservation, but that's my misanthropic self, I suppose. I see my wife every morning and night, and we give each other presents when they strike us as lovely and fitting and great pick-me-ups. This institutionalized spending...ahem. /soapbox

It was admittedly nice to come down to the breakfast table and find this )

Thursday, February 14th, 2019 07:48 am

Minor Update

I was a bit sick and very low energy over the weekend, so now I'm behind on everything. I did get most of my tax receipts sorted out and added up, so it's almost ready to go. (And I really need to start keeping everything in a spreadsheet as the year goes along and not relying on doing it all at once.) And I'm getting ready to paint our guestroom.

I've seen the cover for the new re-release of The Cloud Roads in mass market paperback. That will be out in November. It's the same art, but a slightly different design.

The Murderbot novel is going along, slowly but surely (:knock on wood:) and I think I have a very good chance of finishing by the deadline in May. :knock on wood again: It's been slow going and I don't see it speeding up anytime soon, but at least it's going.

These are the events I'll be at this year (so far):

May 10-12, 2019 Comicpalooza in Houston, Texas.

August 15-19, 2019.WorldCon Dublin in Dublin, Ireland.

October 4-5, 2019. Brown County Library ComicCon at Central Library in Green Bay, WI.

October 18-20, 2019. I'll be a guest of honor at Capclave in Rockville, MD.

Thursday, February 14th, 2019 07:07 pm

it's been ages since i did quizzes

Your rainbow is intensely shaded gray, orange, and red.


What is says about you: You are a passionate person. You appreciate a challenge. Others are amazed at how you don't give up. You depend on modern technology and may feel uncomfortable without it.

Find the colors of your rainbow at

So I picked up my prescription for the nasal spray antihistamine and with much in the way of nervousness took my first dose this morning exactly as recommended, with the bend over gently inhale gently, tasted nightmare (this shit is foul) and then sat back in calm resignation to feeling sleepy and icky. Then--

To digress briefly to add drama: the major side effect listed is somnolence, as most antihistamines are, so I'd warned my manager I'd probably need about a week to adjust my timing etc and get used to it. Also, I determined to do it on full stomach.

I did not eat though, and to start, somnolence is not the word I'd use. More like--okay, somewhat warm, yes. And--how to put this--sort of pleasantly lethargic like after half a joint and kind-of sort-of, well, high, like mildly stoned, like dopamine which is my favorite brain chemical of all and really should be everyone's.

So short version: I had a super good day at work, where I slowly and happily did my tasks, slowly and happily wandered to the bathroom on breaks, slowly and happily ate microwave popcorn one lingering kernel at a time, and felt overwhelming affection for my co-workers, their chairs, and the floor and even mankind itself, which is pretty new for me.

When I came down a bit, I also realized there was like ninety percent less sniffling and nose blowing and felt overwhelming affection for my allergist, the medication, allergies, pollen, and weather. And somewhat more quickly took my afternoon dose.

Like I get the window for 'my wonderful new antihistamine that tastes like evil but I would die for it as it gets me high at work' is probably pretty small but I'm on this train with no regrets so wheeeee.

And also importantly, it really works which I totally appreciate but for the record: God bless that deviated septum for its help in getting me to this place.

(Azelastine hcl: you're welcome.)

Wednesday, February 13th, 2019 10:24 pm

Vid Rec: Luther - Bones

I saw my friend Gayle F this weekend and she asked me for Luther fanvid recs. So I sent her several and this was her favorite. I agree. 

Wednesday, February 13th, 2019 07:07 pm

Jumping on the bandwagon


Rank    Name
1    Found Families
2    Fairy Tale/Mythology AU
3    Loyalty Kink
4    Unusually Specific Occupation AU, Like, The Author Clearly Has The Same Job
5    Royals/Political Marriage Turns Into Feelings
6    Hogwarts AU
6    Daemons
8    Friends to Lovers
9    Pride and Prejudice AU
10    'They All Work In An Office' AU
11    Characters Swap Roles AU (I don't mean in the bedroom)
12    Seemingly Unrequited Pining
13    Fake Dating/Fake Marriage Accidentally Turns Into Feelings
14    Vampires/Werewolves AU
14    Supernatural Creature/Human Romance
16    Accidentally Fell In Love With The Mission Target
17    Reincarnation/'25 Lives' AU
18    Coffee House AU/Food Service AU
19    Snowed-In Cabin/Isolated Together For Extended Period of Time
20    Hot Single Parent(s)
21    Polyamory
22    Soulmate Identifying Marks (Tattoo, Red Thread of Fate, etc)
23    Hurt/Comfort
24    And They Were Roommates!
25    'Falling For A Coworker/Teammate Is A Bad Idea' Except This Is Fiction So It Works Out
26    Adopting/Raising a Baby
27    Amnesia Fic
28    Magical Connection (Telepathy, etc)
29    Body Swapping
30    They Break Up (but then They Get Back Together)
31    Enemies to Friends to Lovers
32    'Groundhog Day'/Karmic Time Loop
33    A/B/O
34    Actually Unrequited Pining
35    'Everyone is Evil'/Mirrorverse AU
36    High School/University AU
37    Selfcest (possibly due to time travel)

...though let's face it, my top 5 in reality is probably:
1    Found Families
2. Earn your happy ending
3. Space opera AU (if I still used the term guilty pleasures, this would probably qualify)
4. Failing upwards
5. Platonic life partners

and THEN
6.  Fairy Tale/Mythology AU

Wednesday, February 13th, 2019 11:32 pm

just two quick things

  1. Zhu Yilong doing L'Oreal and turning to the camera with that slogan is killing me today. Thankfully, 你值得拥有 isn't quite "because you're worth it", or I might actually have died. *g*

    (Of course, "weil ich es mir wert bin" isn't quite the same as "because I'm worth it", either. So fascinating how these things turn out in translation.)

  2. I just stumbled across a trailer for this film, and now I desperately want to see it:

    (Alas, I can find no info about a release over here. *grumbles*)

Wednesday, February 13th, 2019 01:18 pm


Peter Godfrey-Smith, Other Minds: The Octopus, the Sea, and the Deep Origins of Consciousness: Whoa. )
Michelle Obama, Becoming:She was a first lady, take her for all and all )
Jill Lepore, Book of Ages: The Life and Opinions of Jane Franklin: Shakespeare's sister )
Sarah Churchwell, Behold, America: The Entangled History of “America First” and “The American Dream”: one of these things is ok )
Kamala Harris, The Truths We Hold: I'm listening )
Christopher R. Browning, Ordinary Men: Reserve Police Battalion 101 and the Final Solution in Poland: it's a dirty job and they did it )
Adam Tooze, Crashed: How a Decade of Financial Crises Changed the World: we probably learned nothing )
Maria Francesca Piazzoni, The Real Fake: Authenticity and the Production of SpaceAn English Chinese town )

Wednesday, February 13th, 2019 01:15 pm

like a mean old son of a bitch

Back at work today, still feeling queasy. I passed up coffee for ginger ale and finally ate a buttered roll a few minutes ago, rather than the salad fixings I brought in on Monday so I could make myself a salad each day. Great idea in theory, and time saving in the morning, but after Monday, I have no desire to look at any of it again. Except maybe the fresh mozzarella. The fresh mozzarella wouldn't hurt me, right? I believe in cheeses.

Anyway, it's time for What I'm Reading Wednesday here at chez P.

What I've just finished
The Winter of the Witch by Katherine Arden, which I found a strong and satisfying ending for the trilogy, though it is really go-go-go pacing wise.

What I'm reading now
Strange Practice by Vivian Shaw, the first in the Greta Helsing series. Greta is a doctor for supernatural creatures, and there is a serial killer on the loose. I was surprised it was set in the modern day, but it is. I also guess I'm not that compelled to read it (I am not very keen on vampires) because I put it aside for some very long - and complete! - Batfamily fic and when I was done with that, I moved on to some AtLA fic (also novel-length and complete!), but now I'm back!

What I'm reading next
I feel like I just downloaded a bunch of stuff, but who knows? I did find out yesterday - thanks to [personal profile] bell for the tip! - that the first novel in the Ronan Lynch trilogy, Call Down the Hawk, is coming out in November. ♥RONAN♥ (I'm less sanguine about Declan but whatever. Hopefully Blue and the ladies of 300 Fox Way will appear occasionally.)


Wednesday, February 13th, 2019 09:39 am

TWiM, Issue 12: February 13, 2019

[personal profile] alisx posted Consume, create, curate.: "Consumptive fandom, is primarily concerned with having “the most” of something. For example, “the most comics books”, “the most Lord of the Rings trivia”, “the most Supernatural convention attendances.”"

fluffysheap for Purple Row posted Fandom in the Time of Money: A rebuttal: "I guess I have a little issue with this notion of "exploiting" fandom. Exploiting implies a one-sided or unfair relationship which I don't think actually exists. The implication here is that owners are manipulating fans into siding with them, when in a fair relationship the fans would side more with the players. But I really don't think this is the case at all. Fans don't care about owners or players, they care about the sport itself."

[personal profile] gunsnships at [community profile] fan_flashworks posted House MD: Meta: On Autistic House & Stimming: "The concept of House as an autistic person is toyed with in the show, especially in season 3 episode 4 Lines in the Sand, but there it’s dismissed as ridiculous. I’d like to put that as the fact that men in their forties addicted to painkillers aren’t the poster child for our diagnosis, and so it’s easy to miss obvious signs on them— it’s the same case with woman-presenting people, because of sexism in psychiatry and the study of autism."

Ia Cabarle at RareJob Scribbles posted TV, Fandom, and Shipping: "I would be remiss to say that there is not a bit of schadenfreude on my part because of all this…straight-baiting, but the Elementary writers being adamant about Joan and Sherlock’s friendship opens up another avenue that is also rarely explored in media: platonic love between a man and a woman."

[personal profile] minim_calibre posted [Meta] The State of Fandom, as seen by me, reported by me, & experienced by me. Opinions are my own.: "Because there's nothing new under the sun, just different variations on the same old song."

Flashback - June 4, 2013

Adi Robertson for The Verge posted How Amazon's commercial fan fiction misses the point: "In May, Amazon announced Kindle Worlds, a fan fiction wing of its publishing program. In exchange for work written for three Warner Bros. shows, authors will receive between 20 and 35 percent of the revenue from each sale. Rather than existing in legal limbo, stories will be officially sanctioned by copyright holders. And it's one of the only ways for fan fiction authors to easily sell their work. But to some authors, Kindle Worlds is still a step backwards — an effort to monetize fan fiction while stripping out its best features."

More: Kindle Worlds entry on Fanlore.

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Wednesday, February 13th, 2019 06:47 am

Space Swap Letter

Hi! I love all of the fandoms and ships I'm requesting, so if something is longer or shorter than its counterparts, it's due to how much I had to say, not how much I love the request. Feel free to entirely ignore the prompts--they're meant for if you're drawing a complete blank.

Also, as ever and always, I would like to emphasize, please don't feel obligated to read this letter in its entirety (or at all!). If you already have an idea of what you want to do from just the AO3 requests, go for it! This is all to (I hope) make it easier on you, and I am a big believer in optional details being optional. There being fic or art or vids for my fandoms will make me happy. Everything else is icing on delicious, delicious cake.

If I flub the letter writing and editing process and mention something in my letter that is not on AO3 and in my sign-ups or if I phrase something poorly, I'd also like to emphasize that that's on me and you're free to pretend you didn't see it (or to ask the mods if you're still concerned). My DNWs are all listed under DNWs in my optional details on AO3. If it's something not listed under DNWs, then that's a preference, but I'm still going to read/look at/watch and comment on your fic/art/vid and (if history is anything to judge) be really happy with it.

A note: I've received fic in the past for at least one of my requested fandoms, which I loved! (And, I suspect at the time of writing this, am about to receive something else in another of these fandoms.) I just want more. If you matched me on it, I am sure I will love whatever you make me, whether it's along the lines of the gifts I've already received or something entirely new.

For ease of stalking: tuesday on AO3, everysecondtuesday on tumblr

Likes: general, ship, horror, smut, art )
Note for vidders and a general Space Swap note for writers and artists )
Mageworlds Series - Debra Doyle & James D. MacDonald (Beka Rosselin-Metadi/Nyls Jessan) (art, fic) )
Marvel Cinematic Universe (movies) (Peter Parker/Tony Stark) (art, fic, vids) )
Rimworld (art, fic, vids) )

In closing and because this bears repeating no matter the exchange:

My number one hope for my gift is that my creator has a good time with it, so let me emphasize again that I'm just happy that there will be more stuff for one of these fandoms. Whatever you end up doing, I'm hoping it's something you enjoy about the fandom and have fun making.

Have a happy Space Swap! ♥

Wednesday, February 13th, 2019 09:35 pm

CW sadness

Reading the news today, I went to find this post from oh, 5366 odd days ago: Stars in my eyes. Spirit had been on Mars two days by then. I wasn't really following NASA at that time due to life so when the image dropped into my internet, a wee drab image of a bit of machine and a lot of dirt and rocks I was initially underwhelmed. The feeling, the feeling that followed though seems as clear to me now as it was that day. Mars in my eyes. The red dirt of Mars. What an amazing pair of machines and what an awesome group of people who designed and built and worked with them.

Man, today. What a day. Here, I will precis:
- started the day distressed because the medevac legislation was going to Senate and it was clear from the morning news that the monsters in our government were going to use specific scaremongering to manipulate the vote of one of the independent Senators because God forbid they show any compassion to the people they're torturing on island gulags.
- worked on a great project that is doing measurable real good in the world but with distressing content so a bit on the edge of weeping as I proofread and proofread
- then the medevac legislation passed omg and my twitter feed was an explosion of exhausted relief
- it's the anniversary of the national apology and things are worse
- one of my colleagues wrote us a beautiful email (content redacted due to privacy) and I had to tell her I couldn't read it because of the unnatural small localised dust storm at my desk
- Opportunity isn't waking up

My heart hurts, Dyson, and I really, really know why.

So a question for people going to Escapade or have been to Escapade about panel contents. Specifically, trigger warnings.

For the Magicians panel on Saturday, I'll be one of the moderators, and I'd like some opinions on trigger warnings. I mean, this panel will need them, so I'm wondering how I should go about this.

here's my reasoning on both )

Thoughts, anyone? I want this to be as fun and safe and interesting as possible for everyone involved.


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If you don't send me feedback, I will sob uncontrollably for hours on end, until finally, in a fit of depression, I slash my wrists and bleed out on the bathroom floor. My death will be on your heads. Murderers.
--unknown, BTS list

That's why he goes bad, you know -- all the good people hit him on the head or try to shoot him and constantly mistrust him, while there's this vast cohort of minions saying, We wouldn't hurt you, Lex, and we'll give you power and greatness and oh so much sex...

Wow. That was scary. Lex is like Jesus in the desert.
--pricklyelf on why Lex goes bad

Obi-Wan has a sort of desperate, pathetic patience in this movie. You can just see it in his eyes: "My padawan is a psychopath, and no one will believe me; I'm barely keeping him under control and expect to wake up any night now to find him standing over my bed with a knife!"
--Teague reviewing "Star Wars: Attack of the Clones"

Beth: god, why do i have so many beads?
Jenn: Because you are an addict.
Jenn: There are twelve step programs for this.
Beth: i dunno they'd work, might have to go straight for the electroshock.
Jenn: I'm not sure that helps with bead addiction.
Beth: i was thinking more to demagnitize my credit card.
--AIM, 12/24/2003

I could rape a goat and it will DIE PRETTIER than they write.
--AIM, anonymous, 2/17/2004

In medical billing there is a diagnosis code for someone who commits suicide by sea anenemoe.
--AIM, silverkyst, 3/25/2004

Anonymous: sorry. i just wanted to tell you how much i liked you. i'd like to take this to a higher level if you're willing
Eleveninches: By higher level I hope you mean email.
--LJ, 4/2/2004

silverkyst: I need to not be taking molecular genetics.
silverkyst: though, as a sidenote, I did learn how to eviscerate a fruit fly larvae by pulling it's mouth out by it's mouthparts today.
silverkyst: I'm just nowhere near competent in the subject material to be taking it.
Jenn: I'd like to thank you for that image.
--AIM, 1/25/2005

You know, if obi-wan had just disciplined the boy *properly* we wouldn't be having these problems. Can't you just see yoda? "Take him in hand, you must. The true Force, you must show him."
--LJ, Issaro, on spanking Anakin in his formative years, 3/15/2005

Aside from the fact that one person should never go near another with a penis, a bottle of body wash, and a hopeful expression...
--LJ, Summerfling, on shower sex, 7/22/2005

It's weird, after you get used to the affection you get from a rabbit, it's like any other BDSM relationship. Only without the sex and hot chicks in leather corsets wielding floggers. You'll grow to like it.
--LJ, revelininsanity, on my relationship with my rabbit, 2/7/2006

Smudged upon the near horizon, lapine shadows in the mist. Like a doomsday vision from Watership Down, the bunny intervention approaches.
--LJ, cpt_untouchable, on my addition of The Fourth Bunny, 4/13/2006

Rule 3. Chemistry is kind of like bondage. Some people like it, some people like reading about or watching other people doing it, and a large number of people's reaction to actually doing the serious stuff is to recoil in horror.
--LJ, deadlychameleon, on class, 9/1/2007

If imitation is the sincerest form of flattery, then Fan Fiction is John Cusack standing outside your house with a boombox.
-- Tweeted by JRDSkinner

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