seperis | in which i discover i am, in fact, a deeply disturbed fic writer

*blankly staring at WIP folder and most recently posted stories*

I am never going to write anything non-creepy again, am I?

Right. Yeah.

*continues to stare*

Just write something about kittens, kittens are never creepy.

Unless they're cracked out catnip kittens that can smell spicy, spicy brains...

And look at the bright side, best to contain one's creepy side within the realms of fanfic than unleashing it on the general public at large. Or at least that's what my parole officer says.

I would totally write cracked out kittens. Rodney and JOhn would adopt *evil* kittens that are actual evil aliesn and then be mind controlled by them....

God. This is so sad. *mournful*

Oh god yes! And the evil kitten forces Rodney to tongue bathe John and he chokes to death on chest hair.

I shall be mournful with you.

Kitten!

I have very rarely seen so much death and carnage associated with a kitten - I have lived a sheltered existence. :)

That is deeply awesome. Deeply so.

The lure of the dark side? Know what you mean. I can still sneak out a happy little drabble, but, um, yeah. Dark.

I miss fluffy porn so much. I want fluffy porn! SILLY FLUFFY PORN.

...and I get death and evil aliens and trauma. *Sighs*

LOL. Better than the realisation that you probably aren't going to write much of anything again. Period.

*hugs you* You will. If you ever need a pre-reader, email me? I'll happily do it.

*hugs* I hope I do but at the moment it feels like I'll never write again. And it's not like I'm short on ideas.

Thanks for the offer.

I know the feeling. It's--uncomfortable. If it's any consolation, I've gone as much as six months without being able to do anything particularly new but either a.) edit or b.) edit. Eventually--and thsi might just be me--something small and pointelss breaks it, like--a single scene or a bit of porn or something. *sighs* I just have to get to the point where I can make myself do that much.

*more hugs* Hang in there. The light is--somewhere. It will come back!

It's been an age since I produced anything of note. I think I've written one fic in the past 12 months, one ficlet and maybe a couple of drabbles. And I didn't put the fic up for general consumption because it was particularly dark.

I know what you mean though. Just writing a small thing can break the deadlock. When I produced those drabbles, I was really and truly in a funk that I thought I'd never ever get out of. At the moment, it's making myself settle. Or rather, my stupid bipolar brain letting me.

*clings* I hope so.

Don't despair! I once went four YEARS between writings! From HL/Methos fanfic it was four YEARS before I picked up my (metaphorical) pen to write dueSouth F/K fanfic! So, again, don't despair, it'll come back!

[And now I'm waiting for it to come back for me, since it's been about another four years since I wrote my last dS fanfic....]

Love,mxm

It's okay. Think of it as a niche market.

Well, there is that. But it's not a *surprise* now. I can't just *lure people in* and them attack! They see it coming and run away.

Just wait, keep building your body of work. And then you can later terrify people with cute fluffy sex - it's a brilliant plan.

Oooh. You have a point. They'll never see the domestic fluff coming!

Hey - you have editing of comments turned off. You'll just have to pretend that those aren't two independent clauses joined with just a comma.

It's turned off? *blanK* You can turn it off? I think everything is editable still, unless someoen's already answered the comment. Um, tell me if thsi is true?

Ah, right - I forgot that bit since no one ever replies to my comments.

Really, all good writers are disturbed! Just look at Edgar Allen Poe, Coleridge, Dickinson, the Bronte sisters. I mean, what sane person spends 14 pages describing a brick? It's all part of you artistic integrity!

Just, you know, don't marry your cousin or die in a ditch.

I have that on my list of things not to do; very near the top, even.

*underlines on list to make sure*

It's very important! No one respects you after they find you face down in a ditch.

That is sound life advise. *awe*

I try to dispense sound advise at least once a year - that way no one expects too much, but still respects me. ;D

Well I for one am GLAD OF IT.

I feel supported in my degeneracy! *glows*

But you do creepy so well. I've occasionally needed a cold shower afterward, but never have I felt the need to reach for the brain-bleach. Creepy without being sordid or slimy? This is a rare gift indeed.

But fluffy!

I thought I was signed in! [sigh]

Crimes!John and Crimes!Rodney in the lift are plenty fluffy. The way they just cave in to each other? And share their quarters with no mayhem or non-consensual bloodshed? defines fluffy.

There is that. Sort of--domesticly cute. In a homicidal killer way.

Rain Gods? Pretty please with Rodney on top?

....can Rodney be on bottom? Or to the side?

Side is good; Rain Gods is such a great read so whatever position you've got in mind works for me.

...that with the example your (coff) fluffy bunnies set, you're totally hosed, right?

*collapses sadly* IT's sad because it's true.

Totally the waffle's fault that you write such brilliant psychos who express their love with bruises and scrapes and stuff.

Though, I must say I find the whole Atlantis Project almost unbearably sweet, especially with that burning cars and death threats and shower sex and amateur fugitives.

but I love your creepy stuff! It's so good.

Well, that's good. *eyes wip folder* Still though. A tiny bit of fluff there somewhere. Just a tad.

Creepy is fine by me, you do creepy so good :) My ideal is a fic where things end with restraints and nasogastric tubes...Anything goes outside death and, hmm, diapers.

You are the last one to figure this out. *amused*

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That's why he goes bad, you know -- all the good people hit him on the head or try to shoot him and constantly mistrust him, while there's this vast cohort of minions saying, We wouldn't hurt you, Lex, and we'll give you power and greatness and oh so much sex...
Wow. That was scary. Lex is like Jesus in the desert.
-- pricklyelf, on why Lex goes bad
LJ
Obi-Wan has a sort of desperate, pathetic patience in this movie. You can just see it in his eyes: "My padawan is a psychopath, and no one will believe me; I'm barely keeping him under control and expect to wake up any night now to find him standing over my bed with a knife!"
-- Teague, reviewing "Star Wars: Attack of the Clones"
LJ
Beth: god, why do i have so many beads?
Jenn: Because you are an addict.
Jenn: There are twelve step programs for this.
Beth: i dunno they'd work, might have to go straight for the electroshock.
Jenn: I'm not sure that helps with bead addiction.
Beth: i was thinking more to demagnitize my credit card.
-- hwmitzy and seperis, on bead addiction
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I could rape a goat and it will DIE PRETTIER than they write.
-- anonymous, on terrible writing
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In medical billing there is a diagnosis code for someone who commits suicide by sea anenemoe.
-- silverkyst, on wtf
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Anonymous: sorry. i just wanted to tell you how much i liked you. i'd like to take this to a higher level if you're willing
Eleveninches: By higher level I hope you mean email.
-- eleveninches and anonymous, on things that are disturbing
LJ, 4/2/2004
silverkyst: I need to not be taking molecular genetics.
silverkyst: though, as a sidenote, I did learn how to eviscerate a fruit fly larvae by pulling it's mouth out by it's mouthparts today.
silverkyst: I'm just nowhere near competent in the subject material to be taking it.
Jenn: I'd like to thank you for that image.
-- silverkyst and seperis, on more wtf
AIM, 1/25/2005
You know, if obi-wan had just disciplined the boy *properly* we wouldn't be having these problems. Can't you just see yoda? "Take him in hand, you must. The true Force, you must show him."
-- Issaro, on spanking Anakin in his formative years
LJ, 3/15/2005
Aside from the fact that one person should never go near another with a penis, a bottle of body wash, and a hopeful expression...
-- Summerfling, on shower sex
LJ, 7/22/2005
It's weird, after you get used to the affection you get from a rabbit, it's like any other BDSM relationship. Only without the sex and hot chicks in leather corsets wielding floggers. You'll grow to like it.
-- revelininsanity, on my relationship with my rabbit
LJ, 2/7/2006
Smudged upon the near horizon, lapine shadows in the mist. Like a doomsday vision from Watership Down, the bunny intervention approaches.
-- cpt_untouchable, on my addition of The Fourth Bunny
LJ, 4/13/2006
Rule 3. Chemistry is kind of like bondage. Some people like it, some people like reading about or watching other people doing it, and a large number of people's reaction to actually doing the serious stuff is to recoil in horror.
-- deadlychameleon, on class
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If imitation is the sincerest form of flattery, then Fan Fiction is John Cusack standing outside your house with a boombox.
-- JRDSkinner, on fanfiction
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-- Michael Sheen, on Good Omens fanfic
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