this is the list of misery. list. of. misery.

Hi. I have had a very bad two days.

1.) Ipod vanished at some point between when I put it up during class yesterday and coming home.

2.) Laptop is doing frequent blue screens of death and overheating.

3.) Phone bill is far more than expected. Electric bill is somewhat more than hoped.



4.) After multiple emails, had to drop Chem because I missed two classes and a test when I was sick. I could make up the test, but I could only make it up during the week I was still using an inhaler every three hours and I jsut can't talk about this at all right now.



5. Yesterday, my bus came at the normal time and I got in and sat down and tarted stuyding and looked up and it was going th wrong direction. It was teh right bus, wrong direction. Problem: the bus that goes the wrong direction (north instead of south) doens't *stop* at school. It never has befeore. Which means there was a route change adn I am so glad I looked up. So I stood at a convenience store at night and called eveyrone I knew so someone would pick me up.

I woulnd't have worried if I hadn't been in a short skirt and Boots of Ultimate Not Running. And carrying all my credit cards.

There is a lesson in this: Thursday, I felt weirdly optimistic and good moody. So I thought, instead of carrying on my determined effort to look as slovenly and unapproachable as possible (so as to avoid people wanting to chat) I shall wear my nice black skirt! And this new pretty red sleeveless shirt with the draped neckline. And my black boots of pretty! And do my hair. And wearing make up! And actually remember to refresh my lipstick!

This entire thing is totally a judgment on vanity.

6. Work sucks.

7. I need a new coat and I found this pretty cashmere pea coat of love and I cannot get it now. I actually need more clothes for work period. One pair of pants lost it's hooks and button, one pair has shrunk to too short, and my sweaters are getting old and not pretty.

(Codicil: I feel like blowing the limit on my credit card at the outlet mall tomorrow. Considering the mood I'm in, there's a pretty good chance I'm going to do just that.)

8. Tuition is due on the eleventh. I have absolutely no clue where I'm getting the money for that unless I wreck my careful plan of paying of all my debt and kill off the rest of my savings. that I have made some good inroads in.

(I mean, obviously I am going to get the money. This is not a plea for money or ipods. Wait Does this entry look like a very unsubtle plea for money or ipods? I promise, I am not posting for money or ipods, just free, free sympathy. God. I am paranoid. Moving on.)

9. I forgot to officially sign up for NaNoWriMo. I just realized this. I'm pretty sure due to this, I will blow off for the third year turning that silly script I wrote into a novel. A slashy novel of elves.

(I'm actually only partially kidding. It is not a slashy script of elves. I just really really wanted it to be. There were a lot of weapons involved, though, which amounts to the same thing. It is about Christmas. Obvious connection, I know.)

10. Part of ipod tragedy; my headphones were attached to the ipod.



11. My mother is so unhappy. And she's getting this mean streak. Or cynical? I don't know how to describe it, but it's this--almost resigned disappointment with a side of light pricking of other people's happiness. I don't think she even realizes she's doing it. And she doesn't believe me when I tell her. I--it's--I don't know. It's like my sister, who is still MIA in east Texas, called twice to tell us she's alive and not since. I wonder sometimes about finding happiness has less to do with fixing what problems you have, but persevering to live around them *while* fixing them. And being happy when they are fixed. Or something.



12. And all of this, for the most part, is either petty, doens't matter, or fixable. I just cannot deal with doing any of it.

It's just been a bad week. November does not look better than October. And I will buck up! I will! Just not tonight. Tomorrow. Using my Lana icon of ultimate pointless whining. There. Better already.

Comments

[http://users.livejournal.com/_medley_/]

Aw, that just *sucks.* I mean, even if it's all fixable, it's a lot of crap in one place. So sorry you're having a rotten time. (And yes, I know there are people having worse times, but that does NOT mean you have to like it, you know?) ::hugs:: Er. If virtual hugs from relative strangers aren't creepy. :)

[seperis.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Thank oyu very much.

And I *love* virtual hugs.

[lovelokest.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

*offers cherry lemonade koolaide mixed with vodka*

*hugs more*

[seperis.livejournal.com]

Oooh. I love that combination just imagining it.

Thank you!

*hugs back*

[dine.livejournal.com]

oh, it's awful when the crap piles up like this - wish I could wave my wand and fix even a few items off your list, or mail you an iPod or something.

here's hoping some of these resolve relatively easily/soon, and that November improves massively over October!

[seperis.livejournal.com]

I am thinking that these days don't coutn as November since this week had *more October days*. this logic works for me.

*g* Thank you!

[roguewords.livejournal.com]

*pets*

[seperis.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[chrissie-m.livejournal.com]

Well, have some free sympathy from me. It sucks when bad things all happen at once. I blame the season; fall shading into winter is just a bad bad time.

And while this is completely irresponsible advice and I will deny I ever gave it: shopping therapy for the win!

[seperis.livejournal.com]

*grins*

I do think that I can deal with life easier with a nice new coat and a new pair of pants. I *do*. *nodnodnod*

Thank you.

[thepouncer.livejournal.com]

*sympathy*

It sounds like a lot to be dealing with to me. Lost iPod (but maybe you'll find it? I lost my clip-on sunglasses and found them in my car a few days later!), computer woes, school stuff, illness, money issues, *family* issues. That's a lot. You deserve to vent, and get sympathy, and I wish I were there so I could brew you tea and bake you cookies.

*hugs you*

[seperis.livejournal.com]

Re ipod:

I can't see how it *would*, but I'm hoping it fell out either at school or in the car; both allow the possilbity of getting it back. Someone taking it--adn it would have to be someone in my class....

*chews nails* I'm checking security whhen I get to school to find out.

*hugs you* Thank you.

[jcalanthe]

*hugs* Hard weeks are hard weeks, no matter the reasons, and that is a lot of reasons. I send supportive thoughts & hope that next week is better.

[seperis.livejournal.com]

*hugs back* Thank you very much.

[celli]

*hugs*

[seperis.livejournal.com]

*hugs back and sighs*

[zing_och.livejournal.com]

That sucks. I'm sorry. Have as much free sympathy and *hugs* as you want!

[seperis.livejournal.com]

*g* Thank you very much. It's just totally--gah. Too huge. I know I'll deal with it, but I just--feel like wallowing for a bit before starting to break it down.

[annieb1955.livejournal.com]

I'm sure this is of no help at all but I do send hugs and good thoughts and hope things improve immensely for you.

[seperis.livejournal.com]

No, it's totally helpful. I just *seriously* need to stop staring at it as one huge lump of horror and break it down into smaller servings of ick. *g* Maybe add chocolate.

Thank you.

[aftertherain.livejournal.com]

I was thinking that I've had a horrible week, but ... you win.
*hugs*

I'm so sorry that all this is happening to you. That totally sucks.

[seperis.livejournal.com]

*hugs back* Thank you.

*mulls* Maybe a lot is happening at once and will turn toward lots of good later. To balance.

[burnishedvictory]

*hugs*

Sympathy coming your way. I hope next week is better.

[seperis.livejournal.com]

*hugs back* Thank you very, very much.

[nimnod.livejournal.com]

Have a *hug* and some sunniness from South Africa.

[adannu.livejournal.com]

Merp. *fuzzle* *double chocolate chip cookies offered*

[elsmoka.livejournal.com]

wow, that's a lot of crappy things at once. Sorry your october sucked. But yeah, you might just count the week to october and start fresh. November will have a clean slate and maybe it will improve!

So here's a lot of free sympathy for you!! And cookies? Or booze... :)

[forestgreen.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

*offers chocolate in huge amounts*

[glammetalkitten.livejournal.com]

Ouch, that is lot to be dealing with all at once!

*Offers you a John and Rodney to do with what you will*

*hugs*

[monanotlisa.livejournal.com]

*hugs, and not just a few of 'em*

[gweneiriol.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[annieb1955.livejournal.com]

(I mean, obviously I am going to get the money. This is not a plea for money or ipods. Wait Does this entry look like a very unsubtle plea for money or ipods? I promise, I am not posting for money or ipods, just free, free sympathy. God. I am paranoid. Moving on.)

I think as long as you're not asking for sparkly Disney pencils we can take you seriously (wink) and I really do hope you get your iPod back

((((Hugs))))

[dalaire.livejournal.com]

Owie, Jenn. That's a whammy no one needs, especially all at once. I hope things improve very soon for you.

If it's any consolation, my mother has been in a similar stage of late. Indeed, it's not at all easy to handle, especially when you care and want to help. I wish I could offer some advice, but I'm still trying to figure it all out, myself.

{{{hugs tight}}}

[springwoof.livejournal.com]

::pets::

[that_mireille]

*hugs* That is a lot at once--I can see why it's hitting you like a ton of bricks. (It's not too late to officially sign up for NaNo, though that's the least of your worries... )

[ltlj.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[lillyjk.livejournal.com]

*pets*

sounds like a truly sucky week and you well deserve sympathy and comfort.

I know what you mean about your mother, I have a sister who is the same way and I have to really limit contact at some point because I find her negativity rubbing off.

I'm sending you good vibes and hoping that next week is better.