seperis | Sep. 12th, 2003

So yesterday was my six month evaluation. Probation ends at the end of September, and the decision is made whether or not to hire permanent. So okay, Ididn't know this--Super I comes into the front and tells me she needs me in her office.

I *thought* she was going to talk with me about missing those two days this week from my and Child's allergies, so I sat down and tried to look really, really calm. She shuts the door. Let's sit at the table, she said.

Oh hell, I thought.

Then she brings out the evaluation forms.

Okay, so I'm not the worst employee in history there, apparently.

I was--really surprised by her evaluation. Warm-glowy surprised. Bouncy-happy surprised.

Which of course, means, screw it. So the new job would be a twenty-five percent jump in salary--this one I get to do what I think is more important. Plus, the fact is, I don't htink I'd be replaced too soon if I left, and we're understaffed in a budget conscious state already that's been cutting jobs out.

For some reason, that's actually a massive consideration for me. We're already overworked and working an hour overtime a day just to get minimal stuff done, not to mention the mandatory weekends. Every time I consider submitting my application, I think about the fact that I'm trained and the burnout rate of my job function is very, very high. It's not that I'm irreplaceable--it's that the state *won't* replace me if I go, or if they do, it won't be with someone with even close to my experience.

And they still haven't approved my handouts for use, dammit. I want those standardized and in use.

*sighs* And I still love what I do, even when it exhausts me and makes me crazy.

Blah blah blah my life is sooo boring.

Movies

But! Going to see Underground next weekend--I think that's the name. With the gothic-ish cities and the vampires and the uberhot girl with short dark hair? Oh yeah. I was all bouncy when I watched the previews. Screw plot. Give me dark, dank sewers and dark cities and rain and mmm. I'm telling you, The Crow still rates as one of my favorite movies just for the atmosphere.

*happy*

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laurab1 made this.

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Recs later. I need to catch up. Stupid dump of history folder again. Grrr.

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That's why he goes bad, you know -- all the good people hit him on the head or try to shoot him and constantly mistrust him, while there's this vast cohort of minions saying, We wouldn't hurt you, Lex, and we'll give you power and greatness and oh so much sex...
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Beth: god, why do i have so many beads?
Jenn: Because you are an addict.
Jenn: There are twelve step programs for this.
Beth: i dunno they'd work, might have to go straight for the electroshock.
Jenn: I'm not sure that helps with bead addiction.
Beth: i was thinking more to demagnitize my credit card.
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silverkyst: I need to not be taking molecular genetics.
silverkyst: though, as a sidenote, I did learn how to eviscerate a fruit fly larvae by pulling it's mouth out by it's mouthparts today.
silverkyst: I'm just nowhere near competent in the subject material to be taking it.
Jenn: I'd like to thank you for that image.
-- silverkyst and seperis, on more wtf
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Aside from the fact that one person should never go near another with a penis, a bottle of body wash, and a hopeful expression...
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It's weird, after you get used to the affection you get from a rabbit, it's like any other BDSM relationship. Only without the sex and hot chicks in leather corsets wielding floggers. You'll grow to like it.
-- revelininsanity, on my relationship with my rabbit
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Smudged upon the near horizon, lapine shadows in the mist. Like a doomsday vision from Watership Down, the bunny intervention approaches.
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Sep. 12th, 2003

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