workish and not

So yesterday was my six month evaluation. Probation ends at the end of September, and the decision is made whether or not to hire permanent. So okay, Ididn't know this--Super I comes into the front and tells me she needs me in her office.

I *thought* she was going to talk with me about missing those two days this week from my and Child's allergies, so I sat down and tried to look really, really calm. She shuts the door. Let's sit at the table, she said.

Oh hell, I thought.

Then she brings out the evaluation forms.

Okay, so I'm not the worst employee in history there, apparently.

I was--really surprised by her evaluation. Warm-glowy surprised. Bouncy-happy surprised.

Which of course, means, screw it. So the new job would be a twenty-five percent jump in salary--this one I get to do what I think is more important. Plus, the fact is, I don't htink I'd be replaced too soon if I left, and we're understaffed in a budget conscious state already that's been cutting jobs out.

For some reason, that's actually a massive consideration for me. We're already overworked and working an hour overtime a day just to get minimal stuff done, not to mention the mandatory weekends. Every time I consider submitting my application, I think about the fact that I'm trained and the burnout rate of my job function is very, very high. It's not that I'm irreplaceable--it's that the state *won't* replace me if I go, or if they do, it won't be with someone with even close to my experience.

And they still haven't approved my handouts for use, dammit. I want those standardized and in use.

*sighs* And I still love what I do, even when it exhausts me and makes me crazy.

Blah blah blah my life is sooo boring.

Movies

But! Going to see Underground next weekend--I think that's the name. With the gothic-ish cities and the vampires and the uberhot girl with short dark hair? Oh yeah. I was all bouncy when I watched the previews. Screw plot. Give me dark, dank sewers and dark cities and rain and mmm. I'm telling you, The Crow still rates as one of my favorite movies just for the atmosphere.

*happy*

Cool People

laurab1 made this.





*breathless*

It reminds me of a really, really cool movie poster. God DARN IT I wish I could make things like this. *happy*



Recs later. I need to catch up. Stupid dump of history folder again. Grrr.

Comments

[j-bluestocking.livejournal.com]

Incredibly cool picture! It conveys the tone of the story, too.

[seperis.livejournal.com]

Makes me all giggly and happy.

*sends relaxing hugs, just 'cause*

[robotjen.livejournal.com]

I think you mean "Underworld," babe. :)

[seperis.livejournal.com]

*flushes*

Maybe....

*grrr*

But I got the vampire part right, right? Or did I hallucinate the entire thing?????

Pretty vampires. Some of them, anyway. Heh.

[raya-luna.livejournal.com]

WOW. That's fantastic. I ESPECIALLY love the tag, but I really love all of it. It totally fits the story too.

[seperis.livejournal.com]

*nod* Totally with you. It blows my mind what people can create with pictures. Just amazing.

[helvirago]

this one I get to do what I think is more important.

Which is huge. I was just thinking today how disappointing it is to read about all the NIMBY organizations: "Of course we need prisons/waste processing plants/halfway houses/toxic waste dumps! Just somewhere else, if you please." Which always means, "where people don't have the money or political importance to fight it." If it's got to be done, one should always consider the possibility that one should do it.

Listen to me, moral crusader for the masses, right? Never done a lick of honest good helping-people work in my life (well, okay, I like to think I've helped out my friends, but I meant organized helping of complete strangers). Hoping to change that in the next year; cross your fingers for me.

[seperis.livejournal.com]

*has fingers crossed*

I don't think I've ever learned so much so fast in my life with this job. It's amazing.

[taraljc.livejournal.com]

Underworld--and I'm way jazzed to see it too. Downloaded the soundtrack Tuesday night, and really excited. I adore "The Crow" and "Dark City" and I'm so hoping it'll be a fun, fast-paced gothic popcorn movie. Plus I like Kate B. I think she's keen.

[seperis.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah, there is NOTHING better. And now I am suddenly possessed by a need to see Dark City. Just LOVE movies like that.

It just LOOKS fun. *nodnodnod*

[xoverau.livejournal.com]

The Crow was the anthem of a lost generation, man! I wrote one of my senior college papers on it. *grins* I can't wait to see Underworld, either, but I'll probably have to. Stupid money. You go and spoil it for me, please?

[seperis.livejournal.com]

*laughs* If I can get there? Will take NOTES. I haven't been to a movie it feels like in forever. I may even splurge and buy overpriced popcorn and candy.

All rebellious, that's me.

[xoverau.livejournal.com]

And now, thanks to your icon, I have Doors tunes stuck in my head. *grins*

Please do get spoilery with Underworld--even if you need to just mail it to me. I'd love to know how it was. Vicarious enjoyment.

[transtempts.livejournal.com]

I too am off to see the movie- when it comes out and I have a moment or an hour. :)

::does excited little wiggle::

[seperis.livejournal.com]

*joins in the wiggling*

Funness. Oh yes, funness.

[transtempts.livejournal.com]

And pretty....

Whee!

[laurab1.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the compliments, people! Via a Google image search, I found the Alex Ross painting that's the background, and knew it was exactly what I wanted to use.