this is because i was raised to like kraft macaroni and cheese i think

[seperis]

Okay,, so you wouldn't know this, but when it is not allergy season (four days a year or so) I have working sense of smell that manifests in only smelling unpleasant things. One of those lucky days, I went into Whole Foods for organic coffee and my God wtf was that smell. So now every time I go in there, I remember the smell, which is is indeed organic but also what the hell. It reminds me of Sam's, which was the overwhelming smell of tires, as they had a lot of tires, and I really don't want to relive those charming childhood memories.

This is really the only way I can describe how I cannot go into that store, because no one in the world notices and frankly, in a choice between nose hallucinations and being special, I'm going with special or something. Also, I had that reaction at a All Natural Food Store as well, so maybe I am just against nature. Also, and let me just take a minute, Whole Foods is the snobbiest food ever and fuck off, I am all about support organic and local but some of those cashiers act like it's a criminal offense to like frozen pies, and if I am that desperate for delicious (local, organic) meat I will order from Taylor Meat, which is organic-ish, local, and it's possible I used to play with the cows' ancestors as a child. So you know, it's like eating family if that was a sweet sentiment and not grounds for psychiatric evaluation.

(Taylor meat is the only place I can buy hot dogs from, because they are not mushy and wrapped in a bright red casing (and came from cows I played with as a child, literally). I mean, it was most of my life before I saw hot dogs that were red-casing free and that still freaks me out, like something is wrong with them.)

Note: I love Central Market, but they are hit or miss with some things and apparently are a miss when I'm looking for something specific; also, I go there and buy ten pounds of cheese and ridiculously overpriced coffee and tea and once, a metric ton of water crackers for brie. I love brie. But I ate a lot of brie and crackers that week and that really shouldn't happen again.

(There's nothing that makes me feel so weirdly uncomfortable as wandering around saying "Where is your organic free-trade Sumatran medium roast? No, not the decaf, please," because no matter how often I get it, I never, ever find it the next time, and then add "And the monkey tea?" which is this tea that is actually harvested by carefully trained monkeys in Brazil, and also, I'm a person who is this goddamn specific in how my tea is gathered? It's not even pretentious. It's like, being pretentious about being pretentious. It's embarrassing. And I don't know why I like that tea. Except mixed with my cherry tea, it's really good. And I get these mixed looks of pity like, is she being environmentally friendly but bad at it, which no, it's just I can't read the original packaging on the tea and I really like it and that's all I can remember except it was on the fifth shelf, surprise, they moved it again, why do you do that? I'm really mainstream, actually. I buy vegetables out of season. I like frozen dinners. A lot.)

And they sell blocks of chocolate just--in rough edged blocks, like there's some huge chocolate mountain they're excavating somewhere and I'm always tempted to grab a clerk and threaten them until they tell me where is Chocolate Mountain or actually a range of Chocolate Mountains in Various Darks, Milks, and Whites. It's disastrous. And kind of embarrassing, because it just doesn't look right to wander around nibbling on a block of chocolate. Worth it, though.

I didn't think I'd have to go into my embarrassing food issues to ask this question.

Is there anywhere online that's a good, consistent place for baking goods? I'm mostly looking for vanilla powder and cocoa for baking and hot chocolate purposes (yes, I can get that here, but if I'm buying vanilla powder, might as well expand my range of cocoa experience), but at this point if I'm ordering baking supplies online, might as well go for enough to make it worth the effort. Also, saffron, vanilla bean, and actually no idea otherwise, now I'm getting hungry. I really need to feel less pretentious about food and doing it secretly online where no one will know will make me feel better the next time I buy McDonalds. It's one thing to go and be "I am going to support local and organic farmers for all time and shop here!" and another to sneak in among those awesome people like a poser to get my sumatran coffee fix with Burger King shoved in my purse-like bag. I live in Austin. Even the Republicans are greener than I am. And judge me. I need to think about my self-esteem food issues for a while, I think.

Vanilla powder, right. That. Help?

Comments

[musesfool]

I like King Arthur Flour - I order stuff from them fairly often.

[mrshamill]

KING ARTHUR FLOUR COMPANY. Best place in the universe. Well, I mean, as long as you don't care how much you're spending. Back when I used to make my own bread, I bought exclusively from them, they have the absolute best whole wheat flours, and their chocolates and cocoas and extracts are the best outside of Europe. You won't believe what you can get there.

Another resource is Trader Joe's, but I don't know if you've got any in your area. They sell some of King Arthur's stuff, and their 'natural' stuff is a hell of a lot cheaper than Whole Food's is.

[somnolentblue]

Hi! Random person via network is random.

I like Penzeys Spices for my general spice and baking purchases, but, sadly, they don't sell vanilla powder. Vanilla beans (you even get a choice in Mexican vanilla beans or Madagascar vanilla beans, not that I have the foggiest idea what the difference is in practice), vanilla extract (do you want single strength or double strength), and vanilla sugar, but no vanilla powder. There are also two kinds of cocoa powder, somewhere in the depths cocoa mix for hot cocoa, two ways to buy saffron, and all sorts of other things that I am not allowed to flip through right now omg because I always come away with things that sound brilliant but that I end up never, ever using because, surprise, cooking for one with limited time ends up meaning that maybe doing the ridiculously complicated recipe that involves a bajillion steps and every dish in the apartment isn't actually going to, you know, happen.

[dreamatdrew]

In Austin, the freaking Petrochemical conglomerates are green.
Also, I so want to metaquote, ya know, your WHOLE LIFE!

[storm_petrel]

If you find Chocolate Mountain, please please please tell me. I will set up a socialist mining co-operative with you.

[trinity_clare]

I was just about to say that your organic food shopping scene sounds very familiar, and then you said Austin, ahahaha. (I am from Madison, WI, which can be described to Texans as "Have you been to Austin? Yeah." Also we have Trader Joe's.)

[ratcreature]

Doesn't vanilla come in pods? I thought only fake-vanilla was sold as powder.

[indiw]

Don't think this will be helpful, but, what the heck...

I've ordered coffee online and been satisfied (but, er, to warn you? I like to drink cold coffee and can store some coffee after brewing for the next day, so, um. take what warning you well (then again, that only works for decent coffee...) - so anyway, I ordered from Peet's - which I found through googling coz I do the local thing now - http://www.coffeedetective.com/online-coffee-store.html and got that website, which might be more helpful?

Also, there's this etsy store for spices; I haven't actually ordered, but I've been ogling.

http://www.etsy.com/shop/purposedesign?ref=top_trail

there was a coffee store in etsy that I was also ogling but it appears to be closed for now (katherynmd) so..

... and, well. I realize that none of this may pertain to baking but, I don't cook, so... (yeah, don't ask why I'm ogling a spice store when I don't cook...)

[raine]

Williams Sonoma has the best vanilla prices short of a Marshall's or TJ Maxx.

http://www.worldspice.com/home/home.shtml might be a good option for you; they're local for me, so I don't order online, but I've found some good prices there. :-)

[twistedchick]

Williams-Sonoma does mail order. Their chocolate is good. I haven't tried their vanilla powder beyond a sample, but it was acceptable (I tend to use liquid vanilla.)

Penzeys is very good for spices (also does mail order) but falls down a bit on varieties of black pepper, I think. Either that or I discovered something entirely new when I was in the West Indies years back that nobody's ever seen before, which I doubt because there was some four tons of it sitting there in that market. Kind of a lot of pepper not to get noticed... You can get whole vanilla beans from Penzeys; I would suggest making vanilla sugar by putting a bean in a jar of sugar -- but make it a very wide-mouthed jar and stir the sugar frequently or you will end up with a block of solid sugar in a small-mouthed jar remarkably similar to the one I chip at occasionally.

Most all of the chocolate brands I can think of have websites; you could order samplers?

[via_ostiense]

Kalustyan's is supposed to have a great spice selection--they're usually listed as a source for ingredients in NYT recipes--and they sell online.

[aivilo_18]

And they sell blocks of chocolate just--in rough edged blocks, like there's some huge chocolate mountain they're excavating somewhere and I'm always tempted to grab a clerk and threaten them until they tell me where is Chocolate Mountain or actually a range of Chocolate Mountains in Various Darks, Milks, and Whites. It's disastrous. And kind of embarrassing, because it just doesn't look right to wander around nibbling on a block of chocolate. Worth it, though.

Thanks. I just jacked coffee out of my nose.

Also, somewhere is post where I make several suggestions for red wines that compliment Kraft Mac & Cheese, so I am not fit to judge anyone when it comes to food related choices.

[nemonie]

http://www.seasonedpioneers.co.uk/Default.aspx Awesome herb and spice purveyors who ship to the US, they do amazing spice blends.

I highly recommend Green and Blacks chocolate and cocoa powder. Their maya gold chocolate bars (spiced dark chocolate MMmmmmm) are amazing and the caramel bars are addictive.

[luminosity]

It doesn't matter that it's teeming with fresh fruit and herbs and spices and freshly roasted coffee beans, every time I go into Fresh Market, it smells like, about 40 years ago, someone spilled a barrel of sour pickles, and the wood floors soaked it up. It doesn't matter that Fresh Market has been open here for less than two years. It just doesn't matter because when I go in there, I want to barf. So much for getting a real Mexican Coke.

[giandujakiss.livejournal.com]

This is a popular source for online baking stuff (http://www.kingarthurflour.com/).

[rissabby.livejournal.com]

I think that ginseng extract tastes like fresh clean car tires. Maybe there's been a spill.

[eponymousanon.livejournal.com]

What, exactly, is vanilla powder? I always use Real Vanilla Extract so I've never heard of a powdered form.

[hollyxu.livejournal.com]

Strangely enough, I (literally) get knocked out whenever I smell vanilla, so imagine how much fun baking gets!

Sooo... when you have allergies there's no sense of smell, right? You don't suddenly have a weird flavour of synesthesia kick in?

[akamarykate.livejournal.com]

I don't know if they have vanilla powder, but for beans and extracts and cocoa and saffron (and, like, IDEK, four kinds of cinnamon at least, the likes of which they must serve in Nirvana--but be warned, you will never ever be able to go back to grocery store cinnamon again because it will be like, what is the point of cinnamon if it isn't this cinnamon), I have to point you at Penzeys (http://www.penzeys.com/).

My sister swears their Sandwich Sprinkle is a life changer, and I really like the BBQ 3000, but my favorite stuff is the baking spices: cinnamon, nutmeg, vanilla, anise, cloves. Going into their stores is almost overwhelming, they smell so good...I have to step outside and take deep breaths in between explorations.

[ellixis.livejournal.com]

LET'S GO TO CANDY MOUNTAIN, CHARLIE

[nrrrdy-grrrl.livejournal.com]

I suspect that smell may be the carefully crafted dreadlocks of trust fund recipients who pretentiously think stank is unpretentious. But, then, I'm probably still all bitter about that time in the 1990's I spent as the token Altrawk writer grrrrl waiting tables at a vegetarian cafe otherwise staffed and frequented by slumming Phish fans. God damn, I do miss the 20th century. *sigh*

[squeakyoflight.livejournal.com]

I just stumbled on your LJ from your SGA fic? And this is the first entry I read and I laughed so hard I thought I wasn't going to be able to start breathing again.

Not only is your fic awesome, but clearly every time you put your fingertips on your keyboard, something magical occurs.

Just wanted to let you know how much you tickled my fancy. :)

Squeaky

[lainy122.livejournal.com]

I would be so bemused by this entry except I visited California for the first time this year (first time out of Australia! Woot!), and I completely understand your aversion to Whole Foods!

I went there and was like, this is what is considered healthy food? It was all, lettuce leaves individually peeled by a highly trained giraffe or something, crazy specific and random.

Having said that, I cannot help you with your powder problem. I know where I can buy it in my country (guilt free!), but not online. Sorry!

[tricksterquinn.livejournal.com]

WHY ARE YOU NOT A PENZEYS (http://www.penzeys.com) PERSON?!

Also, this whole post reminded me about how I THINK YOU'RE AWESOME AND HILARIOUS. And I shared bits with the boy. He laughed a lots.

Your site?

[atlantidal.livejournal.com]

Hi :)

I've been trying to access your site with no luck over the past couple of days in order to reread some of your SGA fics. Is it down permanently?